meal or deal ?

Seating at the ccorner in my kitchen and having a cup of coffee, I do feel a little peckish. so, I wondering what to eat to keep me going until lunch. That scrumptious looking chocolate brownie? nahh, I wont get it,..how to grab them from the megazine??....?


lately,I'm becoming more and more active! the healing crysis takes place perhaps. As long as I keep my daily calorie intake for an average adult, absolutely I can eat whatever I like.. unfortunately, I didnt..

basically, I love to eat!

display picture

my friends and I have started to do some activities; playing badminton in the evening, cycling around the campus, and practicing poco-poco at night, but not every single nite since we have something else to do..ohh, yeah! another 1 thing is, I had planned not to drive to campus anymore till I get back my Skoda which I dont hv any idea when is it..so, going back by bus is another most exciting activity..n get into lady's coach, I feel like the train is mine..weeeee..:D

A-Z

I have been elected as the protocol for the theater; Laila Majnuuu..eh majnun.
seems like its a big step for me to be alert as i'm not serious most of the time.. but I'm pretty sure, this is 1 of the opportunity for me. Get the job done.. well!! 1st of all, I have no idea what am I supposed to do..sooner, I have learnt that I have to take the risk and total responsible of it as I'm in charge of 1 of the biggest department. Im glad that the crew is doing their job well and everyone is giving their 100% commitment. ok, here are some of the stuff I need to focus on:

1. seat arrangement
2. food preparation
3. schedule/attentive program
4. usher
5. security/ control the audience
6. cleanliness

for those who has any idea on the role of protocol or maybe you have any suggestion, feel free to share with me. I'm looking forward your feedback.
ohh, anyone intersted to join exco of protocol, do let me know coz you're 1 that i'm looking for..

now only I know; don't say it, write it

It was late evening and we are still in the train (to KL Central). Dad fetched me up by 7.39pm and he said, "dont worry, by 7.59pm we wiil be home"
Flat on my back, my breath catches at the sight of busy road. I started to think on what had happened all day long...

8.15am
Vin helped me with Little Isya thing. I'm ready to go to Mr. Eustace's class, ohh, I have presentation today ! "all the best Ika'', I said to myself as I look at the mirror.

9.40am
Lecturer came in. Shasha's was the 1st group to present. I sat beside kak shida and she kept playing with my hijaab which is not Little Isya..(sorry vin, for the 3rd time)
today's class is quite gloomy as everyone is goin to present on the same topic..
why? why? why? why must evryone get the same topic?

12.30pm
we went to cafe and get some food. having lunch with my babes and keep cursing about today's class..ohh classes (we got 2 classes)

2.30pm
I got class, Sociology in Edu. I slept! but I can smell some humors cracked by the doctor (my lecturer). laughing! then nodd and hold my blue pen, pretending like i'm writing.. crap! I couldnt even read my hand writing. The input is..all of us are the champion, we are a good swimmer!

5.3opm
thank you Jack for giving us a ride to Sg buloh. I could get a cab and it takes 15mins to get home but, I really wanted to feel the same way other's do. waiting for the next train to come with a bunch of people inside and outside..being independent sometimes, feel the anger of being stuck at the crowded place..

8.00pm
i'm home..no more thinking of what i hv been through today..
" dinner is ready ! " mom yelled.
wow ! daging Qurban masak kari..

Part of My Social Scenery

I’ve been struggling to update about the gathering. Gosh!! They changed a lot especially guys. Some of them are still maintain and some of them are quite buff. I was the 1st girl to arrive and the rest are still on their way. I was very uncomfortable as myself was surrounded by those guys..aaaAaaAa! we were sitting at McD and seems like everyone were looking at us, maybe it’s the fact that we are very excited to see each other. Those silly boys are getting sillier, still the same. They are absolutely hysterical & historical!! Whoa!

We finally went to Popeye’s and that was my first time getting there. The food is quite okay. Ohh, 1 of my friend brought a cake. She made it on her own! Yummy!

However, I’m actually enjoying staying at home with THE MONSTERS (referring my 2 younger brothers). I have lots of programmes going and they seem to be my main subject; take and fetch them to their training centre. I’ve been much more sane as my eldest brother keeps cracking silly jokes; imitating people here and there.
The fundamental truth is I have spent less time with my siblings. The only opportunity to be with them is when I’m on my semester break...

Glimpse of The Last Chapter

another 1 week to go before I have to register for the next semester; 2nd year 2nd semester !

As usual, i'm both nervous and excited. . I will be staying with my comrades; vinn, syaf, nana, n ede. This time, we gonna stay on d 2nd floor..!! yeay !!

Alright, as far as I'm concerned.. I hv been staying on the ground floor for 3 semesters. It was great that I dont have to go up and down so many times like nana did..haha! 4th floor some more !
ok2, from my foundation year until today, I could admit that I dont have any problem with any of my roommate or even my housemates. Alhamdulillah, they were just doing their business well without giving me any problem. I try my best to keep in touch with them all even some of them have gone missing, several of them have left the place. Secretly, each of the place that I have stayed, there must be 1 of them that I'm very comfortable with and I love the most! but, who are they..let me the only one know it!

The feeling of living together is like when you were with your family. it doesn't mean that you have to make sure the place is fully furnished like home, but the most important is the people staying in there.. I'm very delighted with my days being with them, we have someone to talk to, share the happiness and sadness sometimes, laughing hardly and cook perhaps, walking around the cluster, and maybe we could breaking fast and pray together as well as hang out to some other place out from the university. The activity is done together...yet the bonding between us becoming stronger..! :D

Yesterday, I got my result ! It's quite surprised to me as I didn't expect any much because I know where I'm stand.. on my way to my granny's place at Klang, I received a text from syaf saying the result has already out ! luckly, I brought my lappy n broadband as well. Leaning at the back seat, I keep waiting but the connection sucks! My parents stopped at Damansara and drop by at kak Dahlia's bakery shop. Again, I still could't get the connection ! my heart skips a bit..I couldn't breath ! some of my friends offered to check my results but finally, I have no choice! shut down the lappy and text 1 of them to do it for me..

once I arrived at my granny's, I try again to online and I made it ! my parents were sitting beside me and they feel the same way I do, I reckon. suudenly, I received a call n the caller told my result...

Alhamdulillah ! my parents were smiling at me and I was speechless! this is unbelivable. Look, I didn't get much but it just that I know my level.

practically, I could say this semester (2nd yr, 1st semester) is such a great-great sem ever ! I have been going through lot n lots of pain and happiness. they complement each other !! thanx for those characters in the last chapter ! thanx everyone !! see you in the next chapter !

Oh My God ! Give Us The Strength to Face It !

As far as we are concerned, the number of flood evacuees in Kedah hit more after the flood situation worsened in 4 districts; Kubang Pasu, Pokok sena, Pendang and Kota setar. I have started to think about my family and friends whose staying at those area and I kept calling everyone to ensure that everything will be fine. The 1st person I spoke to is my-ex-housemate, Kak Ton. She told me that her area has worsened and the water level rose although the rain had stopped. Then, I received news from my aunty saying that my grandparents' house has covered with flood. I text kak Yati as well. She was stranded at her place and couldnt go anywhere. Luckly, her place didn't affect much.


This is some pictures of my granny's place. I wish I could be there right now..

from the front of the house

from the passage

infront of bedroom

somewhere at the guest room

basically, this is it..




Unexpectedly, this is the 1st time ever in history the place was flooded. Everybody, let's pray together, hope the situation will be improving.

live life to the fullest and appreciate it

Yesterday, I got news of a friend of mine died after met an accident somewhere in Sg. Besi. He was my ex-classmate for about 2years; form 1 till form 2. I’m not close with him but there were times when I talked to him but not really into each other’s communication. However, it’s hard to believe because he’s too young and he’s always seems happy and enjoy his life to the fullest.

Death is unexpected and unpredictable. Some may claim that they are still young and will be having much time to enjoy. There is no need to worry about death but have you ever wondered what would happen in the future? If death is not the issue, it could be the fate we worried about. How do you know that you won’t encounter any health problem in the future? As I look myself right now, I have a pair of eyes, a pair of ears, 2 legs, 2 hands and everything is perfect. I can walk, run, and jump. I can talk, listen, touch and hear. But, can I predict what would happen to me in the 10 years coming? Could I still see what I see now? Would I stand at the same place like I do now? Have we ever thought about that?

I came to realize that we always overlook on what we are doing, what we have done and what we haven’t done. I’m not perfect either but why don’t we work at it at least. 1st of all, try to identify where are we come from. To what extent we live in this world? What have we promised before we come down to the earth? We can change the fate by praying. If God willing, HE would make it comes true.



Like today, what did I do?

If I could make a list, there must be quite a number of activities and actions been done.
Aristotle tells us that we are the sum of our actions and motivation. It means what? Think wisely before act and do something that can be cherished. What are the matters that can be appreciated? We do something that can give us a benefit which can be used together, like knowledge for example. Learn and then spread to the others, so everyone can make use of it.

How do we perceive our life? Positive impression will attract positive feedback. For instance, I smile on the first time I saw you and you might smile back to me in which we both will create a positive surrounding and activate the comfort zone. The next time you see me; there is a probability that we could have a small talk. But just imagine, I didn’t smile at you and started to judge you by looking at your appearance. Automatically, I will generate the negative attraction and you might feel the negative chemistry that I produced towards you. So, you might feel the same way I do and think that I have made a negative impression on you. The next time we see each other, we don’t bother. Plus, we might talk badly about each other to our friends.

je prefere

Actually, I have nothing to do and turn out to clean up my dekstop, hard disk and this is what I found !

This picture was taken by Mr. chan. We were making a video french for education purposes. Nice cover album! get our 1st single , JE PREFERE

seize the day !

I could say this is the toughest moment ever; set everything free and accept the fact that the decision is final. If the thing you plan to do didn’t turn out exactly as you expect, then just find another way to heal the pain. But, that is not the matter here because I love the ache.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn that’s alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me crying, that’s alright because I love the way you lie.

Almost five months we stay together and the last word is just a simple good bye? It’s not as simple as that because you left me your heart but forgot to ask me to keep and handle it with care. I’m pretty sure that you feel the same way I do but pretend if every single thing is just fine.

I have letters for each of you. enjoy your reading !~

Dear kak jan,
I don’t have any idea how to approach you at 1st place. My 1st impression on you? serious, no smile no talk. Sooner, I found that you are such a childish sister, a big fan of my fairy tale, good listener and most important, you are always there for me to acquaint with. I do enjoy having a “big sister” like you. Thanx a lot for enlighten my days and nights. That’s y the title of yours is my roommate. Deep inside of you, I know u are sensitive than me, its good to have that feeling coz its normal my dear. I would like to award you the title of my best roommate ever! Please collect the medal at counter 9 in front of counter 12 and enjoy the prize.. (u win my heart, my sister !) Even this is your final sem, we still can see each other. InsyaAllah, I’ll find you one day.

Dear kak linda,
I have known u much earlier than the others. I have seen you many times before but never expect that I would be a part of your life. On the 1st day I saw you, my mind can’t stop thinking of maybe we met before, and how do I know you? You are familiar. Yeah, that’s it. You are the 1 that I always bumped into each time I went out from the block on the past 3 semesters. We did a small talk and I have once asked A4 paper from you to print out my asgmnt. Ok, I’m now glad that ‘the girl’ is you, which I can count on and the best thing is we could be likely sisterhood. Since you are the eldest, you always fill us in with such a great advices. Thank you so much kak linda for giving me the opportunity to feel the existence of sibling.


Dear minyon junior,
Each time I listen to maher zain, definitely will remind me on you. Matured is your strength and the energy of yours is the-happy-go-lucky inside you. Keep it up honey! Sometimes when I look at you, I feel like talking to myself. We share the same name but the slightly different is I’m Shafiqah shukri n you are Syafika ramlan. I do enjoy staying together with you, spent the time laughing to the fullest, crying badly and most unbelievable is that I can stand when you started to digress. Now, Indonesia language is our 3rd language huh..what a great imitator! I’m gonna miss those moment freaking bad!


Dear sher,
The 1st time I saw you when you were just went out from the toilet, and quite surprising because I was at the guest room with my classmates. So, seems like you have to guess which 1 of us is yr housemate.. taraaaaa…! Alright, I don’t know whether yr conjecture is right or wrong. Alright bunny, I’m glad to meet you but there’s 1 thing you need to know. We care about you. Maybe there are some circumstances which you might be facing problem like having no confidence to get to know new people or what, it doesn’t matter. You must always think positively, sweetie. Its good to be yourself, and I’m proud that you manage to differentiate which 1 is good and vice versa.

“my love, my love, I give you all my love
If you, if you, if you don’t change a thing
about the way, you hold me every night , so right, I wanna man like you forever in my life.”
-jojo, forever in my life-

Dear kak ton,
I would say that I don’t feel like letting you go just like that. We didn’t make it to get to know each other well. I could say I have spent the least time with you but I’m glad to know you. I have once said that you do your work practically, and maybe 1 of the best among the best. Wanna know why? You are assertive, active, matured, till I was thinking of maybe I would introduce you to my beloved elder brother.. oppppss! Alright, ignore it (it was before I know that you have A.J). since u will be pursuing your study at Shah Alam and most probably we might not have the chance to spend time together, I hope we can still keep in touch.














alright guys, no matter what happens, take care of yourself and all the best in everything you do.
I would say maybe we can still hang out together some other time..adioss

wipe your tears

Today is Saturday. I’m gonna have another 2 papers to go; speech and communication as well as phonetics phonology. Everyone has started to leave campus, semester break is going to be almost a month. It’s quite gloomy over here as everyone keeps moving and the block is about to empty. I’m on my desk, facing my lappy, looking for certain information which I couldn’t find in my notes. It’s rain heavily outside and so my heart. Dishearten!

Last night, we watched movie together; Night at the museum 2 ! At 1st, she didn’t want to but soon after she enjoyed the movie. Just now, she stayed with me in my room and it was pretty murky here. We chew the fat and keep talking on nothing.

“ika, sher mintak maaf kalau ada wat salah ma ika” , she came to me and she started to wipe her tears.
“alright2, ika pun sama. Jangan sedih2”,
We hug for a while and I let her cry. Her boyfriend was waiting in front of our door. I sent her to the car and that’s it.

p/s: hey you little sister, I’m gonna miss u. last time, I always want "big sister" who can play together, share their story and laugh, cry along with me. Now, I have such a great time being as "the big sister".
There’s 1 thing I haven’t told you yet, “sher kan adik ika..”




(I dont have any idea how to handle with the rest, please dont cry in front of me)

as long as it makes sense

It’s been for a long time I haven’t update any news and sorry if the blog seems dusty. I must be busy doing my business which people never seen the progression but the truth is I’m done. Alright, it’s quite weary to talk about something you will never understand because I don’t know how to allocate my own time to think about it. About what? Let me figure it out on my own. Deep inside of me, I’m strictly sick! I have no guts to say it but seriously I’m only gonna break your heart.

I’m done with my part. There’s no way to turn back. Slowly, I’ll make a move and just so you know I’m doing it for the time sake. We both are not ready and I don’t want you to waste your time. I’m very delighted on everything u did but let’s find another way. I’m sorry to tell this, I’m not giving a shot. Let’s stop here.

Maybe it’s true that the time has not coming just yet. I’m giving in . . .

i'm sleepy

Second year is supposed to be a good year in my entire course of education.
This is probably because of the fact that I'm excited to shift on the next phase..errkk
Quite contradictory to what you expect from a TESL student but it really can't be helped and that's how I went wild in the first few months of second year.

near death experiences NOPE!

getting arrested NOPE!

late night concerts NOPE!

staying out staying up NOT REALLY!

long road trips ALMOST DID!

lighthouses NOPE!

birthday parties NOT YET!

shopping on impulse DUE TO my bankruptcY ERRK

ALRIGHT, where's the wild? >>>>I still can be controlled
, nothing much happened physically but mentally, it sucks !
ok, lets get straight to the point..

this past few weeks, we got a lot of asgmnts need to be done and presentations as well as tests and quizzes, all of them are at one time.

1. My presentation didn't turn out exactly as I wished, but I did learn a good lesson . (don't simply get sympathy on strangers or else u have to sit beside the lecturer)

2. I did the test and quiz (well) as i never skiped any test, so marks are there for me.

3. asgmnts are always on the top of my list, I have spent my time (the whole holiday) facing the lappy ! n online facebook as well



if that's the path u have chosen, accept it as it is.
unknown(2010)


Is my life more complex than that of family, friends and colleagues? Are my beliefs and hopes and struggles and dreams any more or less ordinary than those of others?
(I have learnt this kind of writing through mr. S*** 's class, could be used in introductory paragraph n should be included the cohesive markers if possible to indicate the new points as well as the supporting details for content paragraph)

alright, I'm digressing. this is what could happened to you when you have no idea how to describe everything in your mind. dont bother, coz I dont mind

a letTer tO JuaNna; AS USUAL

As usual, it happens.
I never mentioned anything on wat had happened all this while. Let u make your own perception based on your own observation, as usual, never asked for my confirmation

babe, if wat had happened really bother u, why dont u just come and see me like we did before..? if u think i'm being unfair, why dont you notify me directly? me? I wont come to you 1st, I had rather keep it on my own, as usual. I want u to ask me, as usual.
if you feel hard to let me go, its harder for me either.
I was thinking of enhancing the current condition but as usual, we misunderstood.

I was wrong and as usual, its my fault.

p/s: check my draft on Feb 19th , as usual, dont let me know if u have read the message just like what u did before

3 STATES WILL DO

1st situation, me only

I don’t feel like to get “associated” with anybody yet. My mom once told me, there are 2times when people like u and 2times when people dislike u.

Everyone loves baby so when we are born, that is the 1st time ever people will adore, love, fancy and care about us. (LIKE)

When we get younger, around 5, 6,7,8,9,10 years old, we tend to quarrel with our siblings. “I hate u!”, “mom, look at him !” (DISLIKE)

Then, when we are at the age of teenagers, people will start approaching u. “hi, where r u from?”, “heyy, how u doin??” (LIKE)

Finally, when we r getting older, forgetful, absent minded., sick and sick and sick, people will start to get bored n finally decided to take us to some other places, well, it happens ! (DISLIKE)

As far as I’m concerned, I’m now at the stage 3 which draw near to stage 4, is it? I had love to make plan but I didn’t make any.. why? Because I love to be in the middle of nowhere which is NOW HERE. Just go with the flow. Let the time ticking away but at the same time, I will always ask for guidance from HIM because HE’s the only one knows which is the best for me.

2nd situation, am I the only one?

Alright, this one is pretty hard on me to clarify as it is a bit skeptical. Errkk

3rd situation, only me !

Ahah ! a brief on how to describe my self on my own words
ALWAYS NOT AT MY DESK ! fill me in, how many hours I could spend with you? you in red? You in blue black?. how about you, what colour are u? n you too, colourless.. I don’t have time for myself, so many friends, so many hearts need to be cared.. last time, when this kind of thing happened to me, I drove myself to nowhere n I realized its dangerous. NOW, lets go! Come with me, anyone will do! The best way to reduce my tense is just get the hell out from there. Am I running? Nope! I’m driving !

This is what we said as U DRIVE ME CRAZY..

siblong; if u know what I mean

P/S :I MISS THEM

hang out with my housemates

having lunch

lack of love

with the master planner

camwhoring

if I wont remember you tomorrow, I dont see why You should be important today

pointless n helpless day !~

Last night, I hv been left by my roommate as she had to go home for the reason of family matters. I don’t mind to stay alone in my room n sleep all night long without anybody else in the room. After finish up everything, as usual I switch off the lamp n close the door. With my phone beside me, I turn the alarm at 6.30am. Suddenly, I have started to feel uneasy. It was 1am. Then, I decided to see Vin to calm my self. Once I reached there, I didn’t tell vin any single thing bout my feeling and act as usual. Then around 2am I went home n try to sleep. This time, I didn’t close my door room.

I didn’t realize at what time was it, but all of a sudden I couldn’t feel my left hand. Then I get back to sleep, but just in few minutes, I got stomach ache n I couldn’t sleep. Again, I was confused and it really hurts. Leaning back and out of blue I have fallen asleep. But, I felt something different and suddenly I woke up for the 3rd time n went to the guest room. The feeling is like someone has woken me up. At that time, I have no idea why the hell I was there. It was 3.40am. This time, I try not to bother at all n get back to sleep.
*****

In the afternoon, kak yana came n visited me and that’s it! It has something to do with paranormal! Half of my soul has been taken away. I got fever at that morning but alhmadulillah, it didn’t affect my daily activity.

I got class around 2.30pm n we had a sudden test. I got a text from my aunt saying that she’s rushing. I got something to pass on to her. With half of me has gone, rush hour and no preparation at all, I kept writing the answer n submitted without checking. While I was filling the answer, the lecturer came near me n asked if I’m ok or not. I’m not sure if he noticed anything different in me. Do I look pale? He then gave me sweets to overcome the “different-in-me”. I was the 1st student that hand in the paper. The lecturer keeps asking me y am I so in rush.
I then went to see my aunt. I was late! Hand over everything that I should. Then, I went back to hostel with fatigued appearance. After performing asar prayer, again I was rushing for the next class where punctuality is no 1.

On my way to the class, I was bumped into my lecturer. He was locking his door room but suddenly, when he saw me, I was invited to get into his room. We have had 10mins-conversation n just a kind of counseling session perhaps. Only God knows how I feel at that time, it sucks!
In the next class, I was being a lethargic n almost everyone can see it. Not enough with that, I have been told by nana bout something to do with my personal life. I just don’t know what to do n let the time ticking away. We both need our own space.

*****
After having dinner with my babes, I spent time with my housemates to look for groceries n it cost almost rm75. I don’t know wat the hell r we buying but it was fun to expend money for food (FOOD EXPENSION)

Before going home, I went to see kak yana as she has made “AIR YASSIN” for me. Thank you kak yana! I really need support, feel like part of me is nowhere.
I’m going back home n my housemates are ready to cook. We did enjoy cooking n laughing together. We ate at 1am, sounds crazy but It was a satisfaction. For what had happened to me all day long, at least they reduced the tense in me. I love them so strong..!!~

Am I being Judgmental?

To feel what others feel and to have deep understanding on why people doing this OR to judge and give punishment with a condemnation, to make people feel bad about themselves with an intention to tear them down but not to build them up? Which one I hv done?
I face different thing and different people everyday which I don’t realize it changes time by time. But I’m grateful to what I have now. I’m happy with my life, my family, my condition, people around me and most important I know I’m on the right track. Basically, everything is there for me. All I need to make sure is my presence in their life. HEYY! I’M RIGHT THERE WHERE YOU ARE!

People said, keep the old friends, one is silver and the other is gold.

I try to be myself, showing the true color of me but again, of course I don’t know my weaknesses. Am I being judgmental each time I acknowledged something new especially when it comes to bad rumors? (not bad romance)

I listen n I think. Then think again n swallow… but depends on the situation perhaps. I don’t get my exact expression actually, but THEY can interpret the ‘appearance’ of me. Maybe I was amused and the look of me makes them feel like I’m judging..ermm..is that so? Ok2, how about my attitude towards the situation or the way I adapt that circumstance? Or, my spontaneous reaction like replying what I’m not supposed to say..? alright, I don’t know.

I’m easy to get closer with anybody especially when we have a lot in commons. If they perform well in front of me, good to see that. What if they are just pretending decent because they get embarrassed to show who really they are? Or maybe they are afraid to tell me their secret-thing after knowing me. Once I know the ‘who-really-they-are’, am I started judging?? Did I condemning or backstabbing them? What I’hv done? Did I just kicked their ass? Pulling their ears n telling them what they should n shouldn’t do? Yelling at them, “Stupid! You freak me out!!”? did I?

Ohh..I left the others n be friend with someone else. Not listen to THEM as THEY keep reminds me, “don’t go ahead, she will let you down”..(tell me who’s being judgmental now)
I don’t listen. Whoever I want to be with, it doesn’t matter if ‘the-whoever’ is using me for their own sake or what. I never think in that way, so..let it be. People is everywhere n this is my choice..

That was real me.. should I be someone else or change my behavior n listen to everyone around me..? is that good and appropriate for oneself to refer anything to their parents? Is that wrong? Or maybe if I did so, people might say I don’t know how to decide on my own..everything is done by my family n they feel like I don’t know how to be independent n always depend on my parents.

Now, tell me. If I didn’t ask my parents guide, who should I look for? What if we don’t bother about this and keep doing it in our own way? I tell you, this is what gonna happen.
1st. U don’t get the bless from HIM, n yr parents.
2nd. U will make mistakes again n again
3rd. U wont feel the calmness

Each of us has different mentality n I admit this is me whom always inquire my parent’s attention and guidance. Look at me, this is the product.. I’m strongly saying here, I’m not being judgemental. I believe life is a boomerang effect, when we give others a spirit of judgmental, the spirit of judgemental will come back to us. Correct me if I’m wrong. I’m an ordinary human being who is still learning what’s right n what’s wrong. Absolutely, I’m not perfect either. But at least, I know where I’m stand.. MY FAMILY IS EVERYTHING FOR ME. we are always stick together. We r not d Cullen or Bun family either.. but, no matter what. . I’M ALWAYS WITH THEM N THEY ALWAYS BE BY MY SIDE. .




Footnote: don’t judge the book by its cover.

My mom asked my elder brother to keep his room clean.
My brother reply: don’t judge the room by its owner..

Heyy,.2nd year, 1st semester! Welcome to my life.. I’m both nervous n excited!

There were countless reason to say no, but even when they found something that struck their fancy and made them want to say yes, it was often just as ridiculous..

“look,” I exclaimed to my self, “ground floor again?!” such a BIG question mark (be grateful please)

1^st of all, the 1^st thing I consider most is my housemates n roommate! Well, in the 1^st week, only 4 people including me in the house but now, 1 happy family at home..3 of them are senior and the rest are junior. I could say, they are pretty cool and friendly, I used to have a pillow talk with my roommate but not every night as I sleep early. There’s 1 night when she told me a story of her friend, I was fallen asleep! Sorrry kak jan! teett!! Well, my roommate is quite childish and we can have any topic to talk about..she’s informative..

Next room to mine is kak linda n pika. They are both sweet. Kak linda told me a lot bout her family, past life and many more. Perhaps she loves to share and I love to hear. Pika always with her friends but she is the most likely to tease me. She’s good at joking and fooling around. Yeay!

In the second week, then only kak ton and sher came in to the house. In my observation, they are totally different. Kak ton seems serious but at the same time she could be the most happy-go-lucky person. She always do her work practically and tidily. AND! She sleeps early! Whoa! Sher is from Sabah, cute and independent-type girl. Very very friendly. Really-really. Nice to know all of them, everybody have different distinguished..

Ohh, I’m having 7 subjects altogether for this semester. Secretly, I can’t wait for speech n comm.! Lecturer, please fill me in!! BLINK! Most of the lecturers are new to me, they are gorgeous, smart n fresh! Whoa! Again, we gonna produce noisy and annoying sounds in phonetic class! I love echo! Just like when people call my name, “ika..ika..ika..ika..ika..where r u..where r u..r u..r u..!! teettt!! Hahahah!!

Somehow, I could smell something different in my daily life in campus, not as usual anymore. People around, coming and going, some of them are not with me anymore having their new life but all the d memories are still fresh in my mind, some of them are just keep silence without any news, one of them has leaving n I miss her much, some are just I don’t know where are they..n several of them are in front of me but they are likely to be anonymous? ? n 1 of them is still approaching but still pending and I’m everywhere in the society using the same language, but different prospect and outlook..anyhow, those people enlighten my days.. I don’t care who u are, where u’r from but I care what u did..ooppss!

See..! I care what people did! Am I being judgemental?

Footnote: Am I being judgemental? will be d next post!

Sarcasm is one of the service I offer

I have learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

Who says nothing is impossible? I hv been doing nothing for years.

it's real

on last thursday, I went to watch movie with zainal & vin. TOY STORY 3 !! Seriously, it was amazing!
erm, short brief! Woody and Buzz had accepted that Andy has grown up. Andy is preparing to depart for college and he's going to leave his toys. what happens next? U guys have to watch it!! Anyway I like the part when Buzz speaks japanese! best! best! best!

speak out ain't easy

I came to understand certain occurrences by observing but not all of the perceptions are conventional. I could say that I have spent much time with my comrades till they even know me much better than I know myself.

Sometimes, you know that it isn’t right but you have no guts to tell the truth and probably you want to say something but there are times when you have no idea where on earth are your bravery is and this is like, “you know, you have to speak out!”
Not you but me~

Maybe I should try and be more assertive as in the way I oughtta. Plus, I have to enhance my listening skills; be a good listener perhaps. Seriously, I’m not kidding.
Ohh, saying “no” when needed! Here’s another thing must be highlighted. NO! It could sound harsh but after all, I have no choice. This is when I’hv got to have the assertiveness but in a polite manner.

goodbyes really are forever

skoda..c0me back to mama!!

last night, my father n I went to UIA. On the journey to get there, I asked my father about Skoda. it's been so long he's in the workshop. I really miss him. My father told me, it takes time for him to get better. it's ok then..I'll always wait for hm. BUT.. my father said..

DAD: for the time being, u just use this car (KAK 9125)"
ME: Oh, ok..how about skoda?
DAD: I haven't look him yet. dont know his progression. But, I'll find u another car. maybe we gonna take skoda up for sale.
ME: huh??? ohh..ok. (I don't know how to react)
DAD: I know. skoda cute, is it?
ME: yup.....

SKODA is my 1st car I used once I step my foot in University. so much memories with him. the farthest journey I went with him for the 1st time is to Putrajaya. SKODA FABIA, I'M GONNA MISS U. thanks for the memory~

hypothesis cannot be accepted

This past few weeks were pretty hard on me. even now it's the sem break, but I still have to work. there's a small photocopy shop in the library, Faculty of Law at UIA. previously, i dont have to think much about the shop as we have people to watch over it and everything's smoothly done. but now, nobody is accountable and my brother n me have to held responsible. it's my father's and of course as his children, we have the responsibility to be taken together.

my brother will start operate at 10am and i will shift with him around 3pm together with my friend. luckily, he's on sem break too! at least I hv someone to accompany me n most of the time we enjoy chatting while working with the machine. it's been so long we haven't spend time together. somehow, I do enjoy using machine; enormous and multitasking. plus, we have to face the international students as well and some of them are friendly. Inevitably, I could speak english fluently. maybe because of the booster that enforce me to do so. amazingly, they respond and i'm glad that I have done a conversation which somehow, they couldnt get me at all. nahh.. there's 1 guy who cant understand me. i was strongly stressing what i want to say but stll he couldnt get me..."maybe he speaks the secret language of LAW..." HAHAH!! whatever laahhh yawww..~

i was in dilemma. i really want 2 watch shrek, already promised with vin, but still couldn't fix the date. even, I couldn't attend the last gathering n hoping that they really want to meet again. sorry to mohd syahreen md nor, i'm kinda busy lately n wishing u still keep the stuff u promised to give me.. same goes to the others, wawa especially. we will try to find another day..

oh yeah, every night I'll chat with the new comer; an indian girl from class C Tesl.
she's good at chatting n i luv to chat with her. a bit serious, rarely she laugh til I told her..now, she's good at laughing..hahah!

i could say, everyday is an enlivenment day.. i don't feel like going through the same thing even it's obviously i'hv done d routine..:D

THERE ARE TEARS AND EMBRACES

Somehow, this song reminds me to be aware. Human being is negligent and thoughtless. Each time I listen to this song, I'hv come to realize that life won't last longer..

The Celebration, parfair!

THANK YOU FOR THE DAMANSARA UPTOWN CREW; SYAF, EDE, NANA, VINN, BELLA, MADIL, JACK N ASIP....FOR CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY..
ADVANCE BIRTHDAY HUH..!! THANK YOU SO MUCH, REALLY APPRECIATE IT!

live life to the fullest

laugh as much as I can
spend all my money
tell someone that they mean to me
tell someone off
speak out
dance in the pouring rain
hold someone's hand
comfort a friend
fall asleep while watching the sun come up
stay up late
smile until my face hurts
dont afraid to take chances and fall in love

LOVE IS VERB

colourful of my life

when NOTHING goes RIGHT, go LEFT..

[Video] English Writing - Sequencing

[Video] English Writing - Sequencing

~ami~

I just had a conversation with syaf just now. We were discussing on d topic need to be chose for computer asgmnt. Finally, she decided to pick on social issues which focussing on the value of friendship..
n I just have nothing to do.. check this out


My Friend when I think of you.
I think of all that we've been through.
All the times we argue and fight,
I know deep inside that it isn't right.
I, then feel bad and alot of pain.
It feels like I've fallen from the sky like the rain.
I love you dear friend with all of my heart.
But now that you're gone I've fallen apart.
I'm getting better as the days go by.
I wish sometimes this was all a big lie.



Make new friends
But keep the old
One is sliver and the other is gold !

FRIENDS

This is my favourite Tv show ever. I watch them over and over again! It always puts me in a good mood. I'm really into it. The 1st time I watched it was with my ex-housmate, Minhal.. I asked her to get the complete series n I got it. but not all of them could be played.. btw, this is some of the quotations in the series..



Monica: I can’t stop smiling.
Rachel: I can see that. You look like you slept with a hanger in your mouth.

Rachel: (On the phone with her dad) Well, maybe that's my decision. Well, maybe I don't need your money. Wait, wait, I said "maybe!"

Rachel: (With a worried look, thinking she has lost her ring) Has anybody seen my engagement ring?
Phoebe: Yeah. It’s beautiful.

Monica: Guys, we have to talk.
Phoebe: Wait. I'm getting a deja vu ... No, I'm not.
Monica: Alright, we have to talk.
Phoebe: There it is!

Phoebe: It's not mine! If I kept it, it would be like stealing!
Rachel: Yeah, but if you spent it, it would be like shopping!

Monica: (Holding sandwich) Does anybody wanna split this with me?
Joey: Oh, I will.
Phoebe: Ooh, you guys have to make a wish.
Monica: Make a wish?
Phoebe: Come on, you know, Thanksgiving.
(They rip the sandwich in two halfs)
Phoebe: Ooh, you got the bigger half. What'd you wish for?
Joey: The bigger half

Phoebe: Do you think they have yesterday's daily news?
Monica: Why?
Phoebe: Just wanna check my horoscope, see if it was right.

Rachel: Oh my God. Why have I never tasted these before?
Phoebe: Oh, I don't make them a lot, because I don't think it's fair to the other cookies.

Joey: Monica. Relax. Go get a beer.
Monica: I don't want a beer!
Joey: Who said it was for you?



Written by Marta Kauffman & David Crane
Directed by Kevin S. Bright

Starring Jennifer Aniston
Courteney Cox Arquette
Lisa Kudrow
Matt LeBlanc
Matthew Perry
David Schwimme

you got me by colbie caillat

I just received a box of Belgian chocolate from him.. unexpected that it could be this far. really appreciate his effort. hey there! just so U know, this is the first time in my life I accept something from a guy n U r the 1st one who did it..:)

You've fractured my heart once again

1st impression will always be the 1st impression, but in certain circumstances, there will be no longer as impression.
My group; ede, syaf, asip, jeisri n I supposed to do the presentation on Thursday. We were almost done by the time our lecturer enter the class. I could say it was a last minute preparation and the chaos, oh MY! i could feel the tense in each n everyone in my group.

The lecturer came in, the 3rd group presented while I'm still doing the references. While the class was still proceeding, asip went out to print everything.
Guess what?? We couldn't print the slide but only the hard copy was there. how are we going to present it?

Alright, I simplify everything..

The lecturer didn't approve the hard copy, she commented on our commitment and the sources as well.
1st, she asked us to present on the next class. Yeah, she's right! we had done the LAST MINUTE PREPARATION. I'm strongly admit it. BUT, I couldn't accept on what she said about our commitment n the sources. She never knew anything.

We have spent our time on searching the information in the internet. but she said we plagiarized the information from the book.. I'm not sure which part that makes she thinks like that. It could be on my part, on the checklist. nvr mind, I will recheck later..sigh

That was a bad day ever. My presentation have been declined.. luckily we were given the other chance. So, to U my dear lecturer, U must have some kind of creepy, worst and so whatever impression on me n my friends..? Yeah, we r girls, that's it.
Well,my impression was totally wrong, thank you very much

what's going on??

Seriously, I never expect it will turn out like this. What have you done?? I cannot believe if this is what's happening. I had rather suffering than looking at you guys like this..
I don't want to be in the middle of nowhere, both of you are damn significant for me. So please don't do this..

and U over there, back off!!
I hv been observing all this while and my silence doesn't mean I love it.

ME calm..

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!

hang out!