freaking freak :'(

On day wasn't raining and the warm temperature required nothing more than a windy air, it was Friday.. and the day before that was Thursday, definitely.. I expected the cloud to be fluffy! (its so fluffy, im gonna die)

yeah! im a dead meat! ouch! it was a tiring day, though. i wasnt panicking bcoz there's no reason to do so but, she wasnt in a good mood. i know, the pressure lecturers are having on and students outside there including myself, give space to those people called educator.. dont let them down, finish whatever we have started. its all about effort here. the more we give, the more we get. We are sorry mdm.

These few weeks are pretty hectic as we have tons of asgmnts and were assigned to conduct 2 interviews. Presentation is every week which I can consider it as a stepping stone! helo, there! dont u want to gv lectures to us?? For this particular subject, we need to prepare a Lesson plan and present it every week. In positive perspective, its kinda preparation for us in the future, okay fine. I'll take it..

this semester, Im having 6 subjects altogether. usually, we need to get in a group of 4 and remain in the same group is much easier.. hey, im saying this because we need to separate for another particular subject. In positive side, its good to mingle around. yeah, right !

Gradually, ever so gradually, holidays came and went!

If there was joy in my life , there was tedium as well and time itself played funny tricks.

***

I have never meant to ignore you but before you put the blame on me, have you ever thought how much have you hurt me before? each time I try to get everything clear, you take the chance to simply accuse me and when Im sorry, you think I have done wrong to you. i dont mind to take the blame but at least listen to my silence and feel my absence. thank you.

Reply : Everything will be fine

I have never regretted the first time I saw You
I have never regretted the day I met You
I have never regretted the first smile I ever gave You
I have never regretted the moment we shared laughter
I have never regretted how fate led us this way
and now, I regret if I ever lose You (stay close, then)

No matter how minor, major, or how relevant the conflicts between us, the bonding will be even stronger. I dont want to make any dwell on the problem itself. U trust me and I trust U. If only you know what the future offers, you will be avoiding from me. If only you know how we would end up, you wouldnt say Hi to me (in this case, since I asked you to join me play together, you wont come.) If only you can erase evrything with eraser, I will steal all the erasers you have and absolutely there is no button delete or backspace on yr keyboard to undo. If only you know it would be this hurt, I'm regretting for what I have said.

You would just walk away instead of saying Hi. I'll never say bye if u did..

p/s: God made us to be this way because He knew our mom couldnt handle us as sisters. i'm proud to have you! Dont Ever Look Back Bcoz I Do Love You!

everything happened for a reason and sometimes for so many reasons

I wonder suddenly if I knew what I was getting into. Knowing what might happen in the future could not be such surprise to me. HE knows better and absolutely HE has much more great ideas than we do. There's a lot in my head that I keenly wanted to say but it just don’t come out on the surface.

Right after finished our final exam, the result from MPP for those who are accepted to be facilitator were posted on facebook and my name was there as well. But, I didn’t go for the interview and I expected that it was en error or technical mistake. 2days ago, I received a call from someone telling me to be present for orientation week as a facilitator. I guess it was a good news and at the same time I could say it was just a luck! However, as friend, I thought u would be happy that I will join you. But, I was totally wrong. I know it was unfair. I'm the one who made the decision. It seems like bother u so much, huh? ( WHATEVER !! AKU HARI-HARI DAH! )

As usual, semester break is never long enough for me but I can’t wait 2 see my babes! Lots of programmes, go here and there, fetch people around and gardening as well. my parents are now in the mood of creating a new landscape I guess. U can find varities of plants and flowers. erm, I got some task as well but no need to get to the office this time, I will just do it at home. (side income bebeh!), ohh! my neighbour asked me to teach her grand daughter, an english class but guess what?? I could make 1 session only.. I really wanted to go somewhere later, not now. yikes! next sem gonna be pretty hard as we gonna have 6 subjects altogether with 3 tchg subjects. lets pray together that everything will be fine insyaAllah. whatever it takes, I will have to think positive. :)

p/s : Someday everything will make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding our self that everything happens for a reason.

we are on a BREAK !

I love something new and fresh but it doesnt mean I will neglect the old one. I knew it was just a matter of time. yeah, I'm certain!

p/s : tq !

happy birthday me !~

I'm now officially 21st. I already clutched the key of freedom, attained the independency and most important, I have the autonomy in making decision. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ME !

I wasn't expecting any much from my babes because LAST YEAR, we did celebrate my birthday and it was great that I would never forget. They planned well and everything worked out !

This year, here they did again. We have a small party in our place, just 5 of us. They sang the birthday song to me in front of my door room around 9pm something. and I was like.. "heyy!! its too early..!!~" they cooked spaghetti, bought a choc cake and I could feel the passion in me, no words to describe. We were sitting together and enjoying the food and I watched each of them. "They-are-Hungry!" hahahah !!

such beautiful cake I ever had !

The next day, in Dr. Siva's class.. my classmates were singing d birthday song to me. actually, its like a culture in my class. For everyone's birthday, we will delight them. but I didnt gv any speech, its too formal and educational especially, the context is totally correspond with the subject as we were in Text and Discourse class. Anyhow, by the time they were singing, my lecturer was not in..he went somewhere. I just couldnt cope with some expression by some people.. it is too funny ! and my self, I'm totally cant handle it.

It was a fine day I guess and I never knew that it would be another small party is coming. we went for dinner abit late and Jeisri was kinda insist me to play badminton that night at girls' court. I told Vin that I wasnt in the mood to playing. We went to "Kg Sebelah" to settle some stuff and ended up having dinner at "Odah".

I felt uneasy, I dont feel to commit anything. To simplify evrything, I wasnt in the right mood out of sudden! ok, I need something. Was it a process of revolving to be an adult or something?

Vin wanted to go to cafe to get something and I distracted my own attention by making in touch with my old friend. Then, I met this guy who coincidently gives me something that I need badly when I'm in that particular situation; a bar of chocalate ! tq again!!!

We went home finally and my babes planned to just stay for a while at the court. And !!! that's it! another cake..!!! I was like.." SPEECHLESS"... I received a birthday card signed by my Indian friends; Nisha, Jeisri, Yuva, Siva, Kitty, Pattu.

nice cake, I ate a lot!

I would like to take this opportunity to thank evryone! have a blast! 1 yr older, 1 yr wiser...!
May God Bless Us!!~

p/s: Closed my eyes and made three wishes. I hope at least one of them comes true.

sisters-day-out

I evidently remembered a rainy Friday morning when I have no idea when on earth I'm gonna get ready. My babes have gone and now there are 3 of us left. I haven't figured out nor decide on anything regarding my plan on going back my hometown. It was hard to pull myself away and start the rest of my day. We will be having a break until Monday and evryone planned to go home; which means, we have 4 days to relax n rest in a very peaceful. yeayyyyy !!

let's hang out !

We ain't gonna do anything, we're just going to the street light and back. We "strolled" silently through the guard house, listening to the soft morning-murmurs of the grown people on the street. hahahha (apekah????)

We moved around 11 something and were "stranded" at library since there was a LOT to look for. She needs to settle her stuff first, try to get everything done and finish evrything that incomplete. Somehow, I learned on how to prepare my self for the future. "Gotta work hard now!" yikes !!!~

Finally, we were on the right track! almost 2pm, then only we arrived at Jusco, Kepong. Alright, let me clarify this.
The main purpose here is, we want to watch movie, THE ROOMMATE. (awesome !) since we get there quite late, I was hungry. so, this little sister, she came up with an idea of having lunch at Chicken Rice Shop. Gosh ! this is my first time having a big lunch outside. I normally took simple menu, "goreng2" will do. but this time is a very special case I guess.

-THE END-

I feel like a SCHOOL GIRL on Sunday

hey peeps, I'm now listening to this song,

guess what song is this..?

I'm fighting all this power

coming in my way

let it takes straight to you

I'll be running night and day

I'll be with you soon

just me and you

we will be there soon

so soon

what a great mood incorporate my writing right now, I do enjoy this moment.. feel like I don't want to stop writing, typing actually..yikes !~ ouh, lets have a bit more..

running through the monsoon

beyond the world

to the end of time

were the rain won't hurt

fighting the storm

into the blue

and when I lose my self I think of you

together we will be running to somewhere new

and nothing can hold me back from you

through the monsoon

that's enough I reckon !~

alrite, lets get back to sociology.. yikes ! Again !!~

whoa! let me fill myself in, what the heck I am doing during this holiday. evry morning (not every) I will take my youngest brother to SCHOOL. at night, my brother and I will do his hmwork, ouh, this morning, I prepared him breakfast !! yeayy !! (1st time for this whole holiday) lately, my 2 younger brothers are actively participated in tournament and Aqil was qualified to go to quarter final. that was much impressive boy !

this is my first sem break that I didnt go work at all . I stay at home, I took my mom here and there, drive my younger brother to Shah Alam, I went to DBKL to settle some stuff, visited my grandma at klang, and I went to Panggung BAndaraya and "lepaking" at Dataran Merdeka with my siblings..
and guess what..?? I haven't renew my licence. it was expired since 17th March !! it just that, I don't have the feeling to do anything coz I feel like a school girl on Sunday !!

uweekkk !!~ p