everything happened for a reason and sometimes for so many reasons

I wonder suddenly if I knew what I was getting into. Knowing what might happen in the future could not be such surprise to me. HE knows better and absolutely HE has much more great ideas than we do. There's a lot in my head that I keenly wanted to say but it just don’t come out on the surface.

Right after finished our final exam, the result from MPP for those who are accepted to be facilitator were posted on facebook and my name was there as well. But, I didn’t go for the interview and I expected that it was en error or technical mistake. 2days ago, I received a call from someone telling me to be present for orientation week as a facilitator. I guess it was a good news and at the same time I could say it was just a luck! However, as friend, I thought u would be happy that I will join you. But, I was totally wrong. I know it was unfair. I'm the one who made the decision. It seems like bother u so much, huh? ( WHATEVER !! AKU HARI-HARI DAH! )

As usual, semester break is never long enough for me but I can’t wait 2 see my babes! Lots of programmes, go here and there, fetch people around and gardening as well. my parents are now in the mood of creating a new landscape I guess. U can find varities of plants and flowers. erm, I got some task as well but no need to get to the office this time, I will just do it at home. (side income bebeh!), ohh! my neighbour asked me to teach her grand daughter, an english class but guess what?? I could make 1 session only.. I really wanted to go somewhere later, not now. yikes! next sem gonna be pretty hard as we gonna have 6 subjects altogether with 3 tchg subjects. lets pray together that everything will be fine insyaAllah. whatever it takes, I will have to think positive. :)

p/s : Someday everything will make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding our self that everything happens for a reason.